Monday, November 24, 2008

Rainbow Room



What a beautiful morning! This is what I woke up to on Saturday morning in my room. I called the boys in all they were all memorized by it. It was the sunlight hitting just right off a CD on the floor to make a rainbow by my closet and it only lasted about 20 minutes. How wonderful! I needed this after a long night and the hospital.



Letter between Brothers

A little background is that when Skyler goes in for surgery Jordan has a really hard time. While at school, Jordan was talking about Skyler and asked his teacher if he could write him a letter and this is what it said in his own words:

Dear Skyler,

I really hope you are going to be all right. I love you so much. When you get home I will give you my Deoxys pokemon cards that you want. I will draw your most favorite Pokemon and I will draw it and color it. I am going to give you my money. If mom says No I do not care because I really want you to have it all. I will read you storys in til you go to the hospital. I will help you with your homework.

from: Jordan
to: my little brother name Skyler

Jordan wrote this letter in cursive so Skyler couldn't read it so Jordan read it to him. After he was done he hugged him and was crying and telling him that he loved him and hoped he would be alright. Very hard to hold my composure. Skyler didn't know what to think. Jordan has always worried about Skyler in surgery but this time I believe was a little different for him as well. Jordan and Skyler have became closer lately and Dawson has been the odd man out. I hope I will always remember this day.

Skyler's surgery #21

Surgery time again! Skyler was asking weeks ago to have it so he didn't have to have it again for 6 months. I thought I was doing good with all the stress but apparently I wasn't because I started fighting with those that I love.


Skyler listening to my mp3 player before surgery.


Skyler hanging in there after surgery and throwing up several times. He's a trooper. I kept telling him that he was stronger than me. He smiled for one picture and I told him that he didn't have to smile.

I have to say for the most part our family does pretty good with knowing that Skyler has to have surgery and we try to move on quickly from it back to normal. This surgery had many ups and downs for us. Skyler woke up at 6 am before John got home and decided that he would eat M&M's. He had just finished when John walked in the door and said nothing to eat or drink. Too late. We decided to go to the hospital anyway because his surgery was not scheduled until 11 am but when we arrived the dr. was running behind. The dr. was teasing him that he's a veteran but yet he ate M&M's.

You know you've been to the hospital to many times when the nurses and doctors remember you and one even thought I worked there along with some other people.

This surgery was a little harder for me than usual because as we sat and were waiting, Skyler and I were talking and you could tell that he was scared but he wouldn't talk or admit it. He got his IV in like a champ. He only said ouch. What a brave little man! I asked Skyler if he knew we loved him and he said he didn't know. My heart sunk. I really wanted to cry but had to maintain my composure for him. I told him that I loved him and all the people that loved him.

As they put him to sleep, I was a wreck watching him fade away to sleep. Fortunately, the dr. told the nurses to come get me before he woke up and it would be easier and so I was the last person to see him before he went to sleep (long story) and the first to see him when he woke up.

As I was waiting in the waiting room for the doctor to come tell me how surgery went the loneliness set in greater than it ever had before. I looked around the room and realized I was alone. Here were all these families and friends comforting each other and here I was all alone. I guess these surgeries are kind of routine for us but I realized that the risks and feelings are still the same. We need to know we are blessed and start making sure Skyler receives his preisthood blessing even if it is his 100th surgery.

Anyway, surgery went well with a few ups and downs but we came home Friday morning and he bounced back faster than ever before. He was riding his bike on Saturday and went to all of church on Sunday. He set a goal that he would be back in school by Monday and I didn't think that he would make it with all the stuff this weekend. But he's at school so far so good.

Thanks Skyler! Also, thanks Heavenly Father for sending me this angel to continue to bless my life and show me the way back home.

Skyler's First Lost Tooth


Skyler was determined to loose a tooth like all of his friends. He started to wiggle his teeth and grandma went to the store and bought apples for him. He came home and said, "Mom, look I have a loose tooth!" By this time the tooth was practically out so he decided that he would pull it out after some coercing from all of us. At first he was upset because that was on a Saturday and he thought that the toothfairy would come before he had a chance to show all his friends and family.

We assured him that the toothfairy won't come until it was under your pillow and your ready. So after he showed everyone the little stinker put it under his pillow and no one new and he woke up a very upset little boy. Let's just say the toothfairy make it up to him.

Halloween

I know I'm very, very late but I wanted to post it. We decorated cookies at Grandma Little's for our annual tradition. We went picking out pumpkins at the place I went as a kid and have many memories from there we went to the Punkinaze to go down the slide and cornmaze. I was the only one who didn't do the slide because of the recent surgery (kind of a bummer). John carving pumpkins with the kids so they could enter them in the contest

at the school carnival. They all won! I can't remember what catergories but it was fun to support the new school. And of course, Halloween night. I didn't get pics of the trunk or treat at the church but that was fun too. Thanks Jen for making my costume even though I don't feel like the super mom.