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I've been a Facebook junkie but there is so many posts I need to do and I will. I promise they're coming but I ran across this quote and wanted to share....

"SOMETIMES WE PUT UP WALLS NOT TO KEEP PEOPLE OUT,
BUT TO SEE WHO REALLY CARES ENOUGH TO BREAK THEM DOWN."

I have to admit that I do a little bit of both. I do it for protection but also to see if there really are people who sincerely care. Let's just say lately, I've found out who some of my real friends were. Not to say that you aren't a real friend if you haven't been around. It was just an eye opener for me this past month or so.

Thank you to all of those who have reached out to me when I needed someone. I can't express the gratitude that I feel in my heart. Many of you know and some may not but I'm coming to peace with it all. I'll be OK.....

My Baby turned "5"....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAWSON......

I'll post the pics of his bday later but I just wanted to put some pics of him and tell him I love him. I wish that I was more like him and full of life, can laugh at anything, and for the most part easy going. For instance, yesterday was his bday and I've been going through a lot in my life right now plus battling with being sick. Well yesterday was preschool and I am suppose to pick him up at 10:30 well I didn't hear my alarm (that's a first)and I frantically woke up at 12:00 and realized, Where's DAWSON? I threw on some clothes that I realized when I got there were inside out, threw my hair up in a pony all crazy and ran out the door. When I got there he was so calm and didn't really care or even realize that I was 1 1/2 hrs late picking him up. I was devastated and felt like a really bad mom (on his bday of all days). He was so calm and happy. Dawson, thanks for being you.... I love you forever, for always, and no matter what. Love Mom

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Sorry, I've neglected by blog because I signed up for Facebook. I've found so many people I know and got reacquainted with a few. Also times haven't been the easiest for me so I haven't really had a lot of positive things to say so I haven't wanted to say anything at all. I have several posts in mind it's just a matter of time.

Scars

I've been meaning to do this one for awhile now but I was without my computer for about 4 weeks and also was trying to decide if I would continue to blog or not. But here it goes:


Skyler's back from scoliosis, fused ribs, and chest wall deformities. This picture shows his scars from all his back surgeries that he has had and will continue to have.



Amazing medicine at it's best. The devices that saved his life. I am so proud of him that he would allow me to take these pictures. For those for didn't know him when he was littlier he would never have allowed me to take these pictures. But now he is not shy or ashamed of who or how he is. I hope this lasts forever.
This is another picture of Skyler where he had his abdominal hernia removed when he was just 10 days old and his drain tube from his first spine surgery at 10 months.



This is just a picture of John and one of the many scars he has gotten from working. Many of the pictures didn't turn out like I wish they would have or they were to gruesome to post. Like the memories of the scars when he was assaulted and left helpless at the side of the road. But we've moved on and learned a lot but haven't forgot.



These are pictures of the adventure I underwent last year with 5 surgeries and the reminder that I am very lucky to have made it out of one of them. But I don't regret trying it. I'm just saddened that it didn't work out like we all wished, dreamed, and hoped it would.




Scars are a part of life. They are who makes us who we are. I look at the scars on my body and can tell you about most of them. I have a scar on my arm that reminds me not to talk on the phone and straighten your hair at the same time. The lessons that we have gained from these scars. I look at the scars on my children especially Skyler and how proud I am of those scars and who he's become. If you think of scars really they can tell a story. We should not be ashamed of our scars. For instance, look at the scars that our on Jesus' hands. They are for us and they paved a path for us. I guess what I'm saying is these are only scars that you can see but I know that at least I have inner scars as well but as they've healed they have strengthened me. I'm not ashamed of them for without them I would not be who I am today and without my Savior's scars I could not return home to dwell with him and my Father in Heaven. So in closing I am so thankful for ALL of my scars and you should be too.

Precious Moments...but left a lasting impression

As many of you are aware, we put our kids in a new charter school this year and it's been kind of rough. We had mostly downs but a few positives. John and I have been going back and forth about if we made the right decision or what to do next.

My life has been a rollercoaster ride lately and yesterday I was sitting on the couch and Jordan said to me, "Mom not that this person is not a good mom because I don't want you to think that but," he said something like I'm glad your my mom because you make us better and more responsible. You make us do chores, scrub toilets, do dishes, laundry, clean our rooms, take out trash and you should have us vaccuum and do something else. You ground us. I ask him if he knew why and I told him it was because I loved him.

He of course, asked me to never tell this person. But this made a lasting impression on me. That I'm raising my children with values and a brand if you will. More to come about what I mean by brand from our adult session of Stake Conference. I hugged him and told him I loved him and that just made my whole day.

Jordan, thank you for teaching me along the way. I love you.